Inspired by the poem "Gabu" by Carlos Angeles.
"It is the sea pursues a habit of shores."
The sea symbolizes memory, time, loss, and love because the waves keep gushing back and forth where I see the sea as a cycle of time and the sea always returns to give me more memories, loss and love.
"The battering restlessness of the sea"
These represent the time back then where me and my family faced hardships and challenges during the pandemic, not having a rest with all the suffering we have faced. We have suffered a lot back then, conflicts, losses, separation, and pain. The waves battering represent me, as life keeps crashing down on me. I lost my childhood friends, contact and my grandparents. Especially my grandmother. She was the one who took care of me when I was little because of my parent's separation and my mom had to work overtime and we never got to bond but I understand she was working hard for us, and I never bothered her and when the time struck, me and my grandmother got into a serious illness of Tuberculosis and we had to be separated. During my recovery I got depressed and began to lose weight and hide behind a smile to the point I never showed emotion to my family. During my grandfather's death just a few days in his birthday he passed away and I didn't even cry or react and when I arrived back home as the and I got to see my grandmother again she was still sick but keeps smiling for me I had hope for her recovery but her condition got worse over the past few days, weeks, months and one year later she was unable to speak and couldn't bathe, eat or do things on her own. She was paralyzed and I was praying for her recovery. Last year before I was accepted to Science High, I shown and told her the news, and I was happy that she smiled. However few weeks later my mom told me my grandmother needed to be treated to the hospital, and I insisted to come with her, and I heard my mom about to cry behind the phone. I stuck with her when she got admitted and I was beside her. Few minutes later I was telling her "Don't worry, if you want to rest you can rest Mang, I can handle things on my own. Don't worry We always love you." When I said that I lied I couldn't handle things without her, but I had to say it to her to be strong. She passed away later that night and I finally broke down into tears. The battering restlessness of the sea will always come back to bring pain, losses and hardships.
"At Gabu where the ageless tides recur"
This symbolizes despite all those losses and hardships, friends, family and loved ones always drift but return to you like tides. This represents me breaking down, but I got my family, my mom and my friends supporting me. I remembered I had to look at the positive side of things. When I lost my childhood friends, I had another friend group made me feel welcome and loved. When I was breaking down in tears my family was hugging me. When I had no one but I had my cousins talk to me and stayed by my side. Grief can come and go. It calms down not because you forget it. It's because you carry the love of everyone you love and the memories of your loved ones. This is the reason I'm still alive here today.
"The vital splendor misses"
Even in the middle of restless pain and suffering, new memories and love can still grow and come back to you. Love from your family, friends and loved ones is unending it is just like the sea it comes back to return to you. I realized time is precious. I want to be with the people I want to be with. I want to spend time with my family. Cherish the memories they gave me. Once I am independent enough to take care of myself completely in the future, I want to help my family and those I love and cherish their warmth.
"It is the sea pursues a habit of shores."
Inspired by "Gabu" by Carlos A. Angeles
"Just like the see we pursue our own habits of shores. And those shores are the people we hold dear in our hearts."
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